Why is it often so difficult to accept or pursue pampering and self-care? I’m pregnant with my
first baby and naturally I’ve noticed all the beautiful maternity photoshoots floating on
Instagram and Facebook. Throughout my pregnancy I’ve admired the women who are
embracing their ultimate femininity, but I had never considered having a photoshoot for myself.
Why not? Well, there’s plenty of excuses that crop up in my mind. That’s way out of my
comfort zone. It’s too much money. I’m not pretty enough. That’s great for other people, but
not for me. And so on.
Through a mutual friend, I stumbled upon Grinkie Photography. Grinkie mostly specializes in
boudoir and pin-up photos, but had announced they were expanding their maternity
photoshoots as well. I ended up connecting with Christi, the photographer extraordinaire, and
decided this might be something to pursue. I was excited about the prospect of taking
maternity photos that were different than the typical sessions I’d seen on social media (all still
beautiful though, of course!).
I remember as soon as I scheduled the photo session that I began feeling self-conscious. It
sounds silly to fret over something so lovely, but maybe that’s just me. I felt a mixture of
excitement as well as slight anxiety about having vulnerable photos taken of me that would end
up online. As we know, once something is posted online, it’s there to stay. Not only that, but I
started to wonder how comfortable I felt exposing my belly for photos and over-thinking about
what’s too much to show and what’s okay. As a volunteer youth leader at my church and
someone who tends to be more modest in general, my nerves started to get the best of me.
My initial chats with Christi leading up to the shoot put me at ease. She was very reassuring
that she wanted me comfortable during and after the photo session. I decided to embrace the
project and was determined not to get stuck in my head.
The minute I walked through the door my hesitations evaporated. The hair & makeup process
was a breeze and I felt I was talking with two old friends the entire time. Christi had some
wardrobe options for me as well as my own clothes that I brought. I’d pose for a shot and she’d
gush over the photo and show me immediately. I couldn’t believe that was me! The whole
process felt unique, beautiful, and fun. I was also able to give approval for any photos that
would go online.
I don’t know if this baby will be my last, but I do know that I feel empowered to allow myself
more photo shoots and more pampering. My hope is that you will too.